Dear Oliver

My the time has flown bye, you are just about 8 months old now and what a joy you are in our home. You are sitting up well, feeding your self you bottle and finger foods. You are anxious to walk and want us to hold your hands and walk with you all day, I am trying to get you to crawls first though. You are very determinde. Last night you finally said Mama and  it made me so happy! I have been trying to get you to say it for a couple of months and now its all that comes out of your mouth. You love you sister so much! You watch her non stop and laugh at all of her silliness. I know you are itching to be big like she is but I love having you little and want to keep you as my baby. You have such a sweet, calm, happy spirit about you.
 I had an experience I wanted to share with you, I got pregnant in aug 2008, from the moment I found out I was ecstatic. the due date was May 21st, 2009. I had planned that pregnancy and hoped so much for it. I felt right away I was having a boy, well twelve weeks after I got pregnant I went to the dr to hear the heartbeat for the first time and to my sadness there was no heart beat. I was so confused and hurt. I had to have a minor surgery to get the baby out that had died. I felt I had lost a huge part of me and a baby that I was so anxiously desiring. For the next 8 or so months I was living with a heart break, I was fine to function with my daily life but I was sad and felt like I was missing/had lost something. In Aug 2009 I got pregnant again when I found out I felt deeply in my heart that this was that same baby and I knew it was a boy. The due date was May 21st 2010, The same due date as the baby before just a yr later.I joked and said you tried to come a year to early so Heavnely Father had to tell you to get back to heaven because it wasnt your time yet. In dec it I went and had an ultrasound and I was confirmed in my feelings that I was having a boy. I felt strongly right away that you were to be named Oliver. I felt like I knew you already, I knew your personality, Its hard to explain but I just felt like I knew who you were and that we were being reunited in a sense. My feelings were only confirmed even more when I deliverd you and met you face to face for the first time. I was overcome with joy and happiness as I finally had my sweet boy in my arms. I had longed for you for all those months. Now that we are getting to know you even more I feel strongly all the time that you are a special spirit that I have known and I know you have special and important things to do here on earth. I will do my best to love you and raise you in a way that you can accomplish all you came here to do. I love you baby boy!
 Love,
    Mom